I did it. I made it through our first week back. I stretched the limits of my comfort zone this week and found it both terrifying and liberating.
I still worked from home some, but I think I’m pretty much ready to transition to fully back in the building. It’s been very difficult to split my work time between the two and get everything done.
This week has been refreshing on so many levels. I feel a sense of real purpose again being back in a somewhat regular routine with an actual list of things to accomplish. I’ve gotten up at a reasonable hour and put on clothes every day this week. I’ve filmed four videos already and edited three. I’ve been contacting outreach groups. I’ve been working on programming. I even went out to a couple of my outreach centers today to collect books that were left from the school year. That’s the first time in almost two months that I’ve been out of the house and conducted business of some sort with another human that wasn’t guaranteed to be in a super-controlled environment (but both were, and I was very grateful for that).
Most of all, I’ve been able to see faces of and have conversations with people that I have missed. A LOT. Like, I didn’t truly realize how much until we were back. And while there is some weirdness with masks and social distancing, it feels like a little bit of normalcy has been restored.
Don’t get me wrong. There is definitely still an air of impending doom as we wait to see what happens with our state opening up and anticipate the onslaught of patrons when we start curbside pickup next month. There is a sense of loss and sadness over what summer normally is versus what it will be this year. There is fear and paranoia as we travel back and forth, bring books in from the outside, put on and take off gloves and masks, and wash and sanitize a million times each day.
But overall, this has been good. It has pushed me in ways I needed to be pushed, but not to the point where I feel unsafe. We are taking good precautions and we are all looking out for each other. I couldn’t ask for much more than that.